Today is the 18th birthday of my 2nd daughter.Last week my oldest daughter turned 30. I remember the days they were born and how happy and proud I was. To know I had a part in creating something as amazing as a new life is easily my greatest accomplishment and has always given me my purpose in life.
And yet these milestones also tell me that I am alone again. Without them. Like so many fathers I have been delegated to a part-time parent through no choice of my own. We divorced fathers have to fight to be included and are never sure where we fit into our childs' lives after we leave the house.
It's just another burden we shoulder as we try to move on. And its the heaviest burden of all.
Cancer and death never scared me. But living without them is a thought that shakes me to my soul.
So I will get up in the morning and fight through another day and hope my love is there with them somehow even though I am not.
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