Hope

  Lest you think it's all doom and gloom, I still have always had hope. That's right, I am not religious, don't know if there is a God or if Jesus is the messiah, but I have always had hope. I don't know why either. It's just there.
  In my darkest times and there have been many, hope has always peeked in and offered a chance. For renewal,salvation, forgiveness, and a new chance.  So now in another time of testing and tribulation I say Fuck you fate, I will survive! You can't beat me. I will go down fighting. For my children, for the familia, I face the darkness, I am a man and I can survive!
  Love and family. Love and family, something neither one of the ex-wifes really understood. For me they are not just words. They are my code, my reason for being. As I have gotten older I've realized this on a deeper and deeper level. They sustain me and give me strength. The world crumbles before them and I am renewed.
  I feel sorry for people that have never learned that, who cling to money and temporary pleasures. Love conquers all-----------For to be truly free you must give yourself regardless of the consequences. Let the chips fall where they may. I will not change no matter the cost!